Today, I am going in for a life changing surgery.
You see just like many other women, I have had big breasts for most of my life and despite what some may think, I did not consider this to be a blessing.
Along with these big breasts came constant back pain, hunched over shoulders, and a decrease in my confidence.
It has been a long road getting to this day and I have cried many nights thinking that this day would never come,
but God…
He has taken me through a process that showed me even more what a personal God He is and He has also shown me just how much He loves and cares for me.
There’s so much I could say, but I don’t want to make this too long. Therefore, I will just share three things that I learned while preparing for surgery.
- THERE’S A COMMUNITY FOR EVERYTHING – Last year when I got declined for surgery due to my weight, I was very discouraged, so I decided to look for other women who would understand what I was going through. To my surprise, I found a breast reduction support group. In this community, women were sharing their journeys, their disappointments, their before and after pictures. They were sharing the good, the bad, and the ugly and all of it has helped me to make it to this day. Being a part of this community, showed me that there was hope at the end of the tunnel and it kept me motivated to not give up. So, I don’t care what it is you’re going through right now, you do not have to go through it alone. There’s a community out there for you.
- SOME SCARS ARE WORTH IT – One thing I learned from my surgeon and the support group was that there will be significant scars after surgery, but when my options are having scars or continuing to live in pain, I will choose the scars every time. I am sure every mom like me who had to go through a c-section to deliver their babies would say that those scars were definitely worth it. And I bet if we were to ask Jesus about His scars from the cross, He would say even if it was just for one, it would have been worth it. Although I am talking about literal scars, some of you reading this are letting the fear of metaphorical scars keep you stuck. You know that God has called you to step out and do something unlike anything you’ve ever done before, but you’re afraid of what others will think. You are afraid of failure. You are afraid of losing it all. But you have to ask yourself which would be worse- a few “battle scars” or the regret of never knowing what could have been if you stepped out and just did what God asked you to do.
- JUST BECAUSE YOU CARRY SOMETHING A LONG TIME, DOES NOT MEAN YOU HAVE TO CONTINUE TO CARRY IT – I’ve walked around for years carrying these big breasts and all the pain that comes with them, but one day I realized I had a choice. I didn’t have to continue carrying around these things that were making me miserable. My issue was my big breasts, yours may be unforgiveness, anger, shame, or something else. Whatever you are carrying, you can be free of carrying those burdens. God has told us to cast our cares on Him, so even if you’ve been carrying your “thing” for thirty years, you don’t have to carry it another day. You get to choose and with that choice comes so much freedom.
As for me, I’m looking forward to life on the other side of this surgery. Yes, I will have several weeks of healing and recovery, but I know I will be better for taking this time to go through this process.
If you recognized while reading this that you are in need of support and community, that you’ve let the fear of “scars” keep you stuck, or that you’ve been carrying something for way too long, I would love to help you in your healing and recovery process. I’ve taken a few days off after surgery, but my calendar is still open. You can book an introductory session below and let me help you walk your process out.
